do you believe in magik?

magikbean @ 2008-12-09T21:24:00

2008-12-10T02:41:55Z

-okay so I don't really have anything to say but basically things are boring, school is a drag, nothing eventful has happened lately, certain people are pissing me off, I am still tired.....oh but I hope to go to bed early tonight. I actually did my homework at a decent time today because I had to make a big birthday brownie for Angela. :)

-but yeah other than the continuous monotony of my everyday life...YAY MY BIRTHDAY IS FRRRIDAY. which is three days wooooo. I can't remember the last time my birthday was on a good day of the week....its been mondays tuesdays wednesdays which are all kinda bleh.

-On sunday Angela came over and we just kind of hung out and we colored all over these old converse I have and we went outside and threw snow and pumpkins at each other. Yeah, it was a pretty good day.

-Arrrggghhhhh I have basically no clothes to wear anymore and in the morning I am always at a loss, unable to make a decision because I have no clothes/they are all fug/they are old/they dont fit/i just dont like them anymore etc etc and it is a waste of time and basically I wish I could go get a new wardrobe. I can't wait for christmas/to go shopping with my christmas money though :)

-mm it will be so nice when xmas break comes. I am so not even putting effort into school anymore, I just wanna get it the fuck over with so it can be christmas and I can sleep and relax and have FUN. and omg a ridiculous blizzard would be awesome too

mmmyeah so I'll be done ranting now. gonna go to sleep and like...actually get a good nights sleep.
hopefully tomorrow will be a good day. :)

magikbean @ 2008-12-04T18:33:00

2008-12-04T23:38:01Z

omg so i guess i possibly have lyme disease?
haha greaaat

magikbean @ 2008-12-03T21:56:00

2008-12-04T03:29:40Z

The 'Be Pete Wentz' poetry meme
01. put your music player on shuffle
02. the first lines of twenty songs = a poem
03. the first line of the twenty-first song is the title.

It Was The Look On Your Face
You said to only look up
I'm on fire
I wanna hear some music
You were the only face I'd ever known
I'm always assuming the worst
I know its deep
Don't lift me up
There's a voice in my head telling me why I should hate you
Its happening again
Here comes the sadness that I miss so much
My eyes can't believe what they have seen
I've been jumping from the tops of buildings
Hey, you always seem to catch me when I'm lying
I picked you out of a crowd and talked to you
Shake down you make me break
I see nothing in your eyes
Call the police
Move one inch at a time, don't make this hard
I'm looking at you through the wine glass
Coming out of Minnesota

lol, i like it?

Today was a pretty good day. omg I need to like be less awkward when I talk to people haha. And just have more to say in general askfjdhlksajhdf I suck at conversation sometimes w/e

I wish I had gotten home earlier, 'cause I was really tired when I finally did. I had no homework tonight and I could have worked on my drawing :( Ugh I am so sleepy now though and I really don't feel like it so I'm going to bed.

magikbean @ 2008-12-02T21:29:00

2008-12-03T03:00:45Z

ahhhh I'm getting sick of school already. even the classes I liked I'm starting not to care for much anymore. I hardly pay attention ever, I do the work only because I have to, and basically the only reason I go is to get it over with. I just space out constantly and wait for the day to be over. The only things I look forward to anymore are weekends. And Christmas. And my birthday's coming up. And sleep.
Well, idk. I do like school, because I get to see everyone and talk to my friends and people that I wouldn't really see much or talk to otherwise. But I'm just way too tired all the time, and yeah obviously I really need to get more sleep and not go to bed late, but it would also be great if school didn't start so ridiculously early...

I would like December more if it weren't for all the extra homework and projects and 3481638569247856 tests our teachers give us. Like I get so stressed out by the end of the month that I'm freaking suicidal. Not really though. But you get the point.

Oh lol today in gym we did these agility ladder things and of course I slipped on one going backwards and fell flat on my face. I didn't really care though probably because I already dislike that class so much that not even embarrassing myself like that could make it much worse. Plus shit like that kind of happens to me all the time so I'm used to it by now. omg though I still hate how clumsy and uncoordinated I am wtf.

k I am done complaining now

I can't wait for my birthday wooo~
and I think I might be going to boston so yay

well I think I'm gonna go to bed early tonight, I actually didn't have that much homework.

magikbean @ 2008-12-01T17:30:00

2008-12-01T22:31:35Z

lol i keep stealing stuff from lita
this one was fun though hahah

magikbean @ 2008-11-29T15:13:00

2008-11-29T20:14:08Z

Your rainbow is strongly shaded violet.

What is says about you: You are a creative person. You appreciate beauty and craftsmanship. You are patient and will keep trying to understand something until you've mastered it.

Find the colors of your rainbow at spacefem.com.

you are plum
#DDA0DD

Your dominant hues are red and blue. You're confident and like showing people new ideas. You play well with others and can be very influential if you want to be.

Your saturation level is low - You stay out of stressful situations and advise others to do the same. You may not be the go-to person when something really needs done, but you know never to blow things out of proportion.

Your outlook on life is bright. You see good things in situations where others may not be able to, and it frustrates you to see them get down on everything.

the spacefem.com html color quiz

magikbean @ 2008-11-24T15:48:00

2008-11-24T20:57:27Z

lol

thats me
i am oh so merrymerrymerry

haha k then compare ppl w/e u say

magikbean @ 2008-11-22T13:39:00

2008-11-22T18:46:50Z

asdfasdfasdf
my arm still hurts from that shot i got yesterday wtf
and they took like five tubes of blood
and all the tests are going to come back negative
and my parents are like "ohhhh its okay at least we can be sure!!!"
but seriously the reason i'm tired is because i dont sleep, ever thought of that?
what a waste of time though
w/e

hahah the doctor was all "ohi are you sexually active?"
so i'm like "lolno"
so she says "oic thats good so you're not pregnant?"
"....no"
"o ok. so you've never had sex before?"
"NOPE"
"ok no drinking no smoking or drugs?"
"no"
"are you lying to me?"
"NO"

lol it was a different doctor and i kind of thought she was an idiot at first because when she came in the first thing she said was like "so...what are you here for? a physical or something?"
o_o

tweets

2008-11-22T01:50:54Z

22:56 @lightfactory ): hopefully he'll realize you're way better than those ho's. #
22:57 dayummmm i am so not tired right now #

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tweets

2008-11-21T01:36:14Z

22:05 omg sleeeeep ily #

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magikbean @ 2008-11-20T17:30:00

2008-11-20T22:30:06Z

what the fuck, why are my parents insane

they had to make a huge deal about me wanting to stay home today because i didnt feel good
wow, i'm not even a bad student at least i try in school but they make it seem so bad to stay home for one day

and then they're all
"OMG is there something going on at school that we should know about"
"okay omg k so i'm gonna take you to the doctor tomorrow cuz there could be sumthin wrong omgz"

and then my dad has to make everything so dramatic like wtf
he analyzes everything he thinks i say wrong and turns it into an argument about that
he tells me i dont understand his point of view or whatever even though i do, and when i tell him that he's like NOPE

w/e i just dont see why everything has to be such a huge issue to them, i just needed one day of rest that's it and then i'm going back to school tomorrow and everything will be fiinnee and dandy

tweets

2008-11-18T01:50:19Z

22:29 so bored omg i need something to do #
22:30 lol i'll probably just go do my sketchbook for school or something idk #
23:49 omg new hp6 trailer <3333 #
20:37 fuuuuuuuck i hate homework #
20:38 yeah sleep would be nice right now #

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tweets

2008-11-17T01:46:56Z

02:26 lol i havent twitter'd in a while #
02:26 why am i awake #

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magikbean @ 2008-11-14T12:54:00

2008-11-14T18:19:36Z

- I got my hair cut today. I like it.

- I haven't been posting a lot lately. :\ Mostly because I don't know what to write about. I think my mind has been so cloudy from lack of sleep that I just don't remember things anymore.

- I want some new clothes. I'm thinking of ordering some fullbleed tees.

- Fuck, I really don't think I'm going to be able to finish that portrait on time. Or be able to make it look good. I haven't been feeling particularly creative lately, and I can't just start drawing without feeling motivated somehow. Idk, I've been too stressed out.

- I really wish I could talk to someone. A certain person, I mean. But I don't know how I'd go about doing that. I really want to get to know them better. I should probably do something, try to start a conversation somehow, but I'm always afraid of making myself look like an idiot. So I'll probably just sit and wait for things to ~happen~ like I always do. -_-

- lol, my mom thought I would dye my hair black and that I'm going through a "phase." It made me laugh.
black hair would be so gross omg
seriously though I'm not even depressed/emo/scene/wtfever and I wear colorful things
and if i ever did dye my hair it would be like light brown or something idk
like close to what my hair is now except brown i guess
but i really don't want to dye it anyway

- wooo three day weekend, november is great.
except we have a full week next week but w/e 'cause its thanksgiving after that

- It's really annoying to see people putting up christmas decorations already.

magikbean @ 2008-11-11T23:42:00

2008-11-12T04:44:42Z

GODDAMNIT I MISSED 11:11

foiled again

tweets

2008-11-12T01:33:02Z

22:08 fuck. idek anymore :( aksfhdaklsfhdakslfh #

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magikbean @ 2008-11-11T00:20:00

2008-11-11T05:20:36Z

why don't i ever go to sleep omfg

magikbean @ 2008-11-10T16:35:00

2008-11-10T21:46:28Z

"my god, ignorance is scary. ... it's one of the scariest things i know."

magikbean @ 2008-11-09T22:58:00

2008-11-10T03:59:18Z

o ok why did i not know about ad-free basic account until now
k cool?

anonymity meme

2008-11-10T01:51:31Z

THE ANONYMITY
MEME PT DEUX

k do it plz :)

tweets

2008-11-10T01:41:42Z

15:00 duuuude safari is ossum #

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I sleep too much

2008-11-09T02:47:08Z

- What a waste of a day. Thanks to my parents I didn't get home until after 2:30 this morning, so I ended up sleeping wicked late. ASKJLFHASKL I was going to be productive today. Like idk, clean my room or do some laundry so I actually have something to wear. But by the time I actually woke up I had to be ready to leave to go to my little cousin's bday party.

- I also wanted to go to AC Moore today, 'cause I wanted some fabric and also some good paper and pencils maybs. Okay so the woman that cleans my house like every two weeks or whatever left me a note one day saying that she wants to hire me to draw a portrait of her and her husband together, to give to him for christmas. Anyway she said she's going to drop off some photos on tuesday. But omg I'm so worried that I won't be able to do it well enough, or that I wont have enough time. I only have like less than two months to do it and I'll probably be swamped with school work most of the time. Well, I'm really happy about it overall anyway, I'm getting noticed for my talents and actually getting paid for something that I do for enjoyment~*~* ^_^

- I can kind of play the first part of Konstantine now, it's pretty cool. But it can get kind of confusing 'cause idk its mostly the same thing over and over but I have to remember the certain times when a note or two changes, and then i mess up. w/e idk its hard to explain

- I dunno what else to talk about now. Sorry I haven't posted or commented anyone in a few days, Im being a bad lj friend rn ):

hay

2008-11-07T01:40:26Z

yay i found a site with lots of sheet music*~ http://pianoramic.blogspot.com/
yeah its pretty great

magikbean @ 2008-11-05T21:34:00

2008-11-06T02:37:04Z

why do i suck at life omfg

tweets

2008-11-06T01:47:21Z

00:30 omfg YAY #
00:30 <333 #

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